Things that hurt

seeing him kiss on his girlfriend
knowing he doesnt think about you
that he is texting her and ignoring yours
dreaming about him . 10 or more times.
dreaming about her and him getting more serious.  3 times now.
seeing him every Sunday
with her
 thinking about them working out and it makes you sick
wishing they wouldn't work out
waiting for the breakup
waiting for a text back
not being able to see him without wanting to cry
always fighting back tears
trying to get over him by enlisting another boys affections
that doesnt work
sneaking looks at him when no one is looking
having your friends tell you to move on
facing rolling eyes and sighs when you mention him
"you can do SO much better"
wanting to talk to him like you did when you were just friends
before her
looking at his page, dreading the new relationship status
crying yourself to sleep thinking about it all
just needing someone to like to get over it
balling in the bath tub the night you told him you had feelings and he told you he literally began a relationship the night before
trying to put on a happy face
trying to be normal
thinking that she is actually a cool person
trying to be an adult about all this
sitting next to them, with all the cuddling and flirting
not even being able to look him in the eye anymore
losing a friend
losing time thinking about someone who isn't thinking about you
seeing him and then seeing her sitting next to him
fabricating every touch and move in your mind that you thought meant something
it didn't
wanting someone to be totally obsessed with you, your accomplishments, your strengths, your desires
deserving that



Going on 5 months now.........